Today’s challenge was to pray for myself. I understand that sounds selfish, but it’s really not. See, I have trouble praying for myself. I feel like I don’t deserve to ask God for anything. After all, I’m a sinner who doesn’t deserve anything He does for me.
The reason I made this a challenge is because I want to learn that it is not bad to pray for myself. I want to feel comfortable bringing my worries, requests, and feelings to him. I want to believe that He cares.
Usually when I pray, I put myself last. I thank God, I confess my sins, I pray for others, and then I pray for myself. Since I do my biggest prayer at night, sometimes I fall asleep before I get to myself.
Today was a great day to have this challenge because it was the first day of my semester. I had a lot to pray about! One of the biggest things is adjusting to school starting, and being in a different country where things are so much different than in America. Also, there are some things weighing on me emotionally, that it felt good to bring to God.
There’s a quote that I really like that I often need to remind myself of. It goes like this:
God is not bothered by our constant coming and asking. The way to trouble God is not to come at all.
I was going to post this yesterday, but I ended up not doing the challenge until I went to bed.
Yesterday’s challenge was to pray for opportunities to share my faith. That was fitting because I started my semester today, which should give me plenty of opportunities to share my faith.
I took it a step further, and asked God to help me to see the opportunities He gives me, and to give me the courage to start spiritual conversations.
A lot of the friends I’ve made here claim to be Christians, but I intend to have conversations with them so I can discover what being a Christian means to them. Then I can tell them what it means to me. That’s another way to share my faith.
This challenge reminded me of the importance of seeking out opportunities to share my faith.
I know I just posted the Prayer J.A.R. post, but I actually wrote it a couple days ago. I was just having some technical difficulties.
Like I said in that post, I’m going to share how my challenge went each day. Since I’m on my second day, I’ll be posting twice today to catch up.
My challenge the first day was to pray in the morning instead of at night.
The reason I wrote that one is because I am a stickler for praying at night, and I thought it could be good to switch up my routine.
I drew that slip in the morning, and since I had prayed the night before, I decided to not pray that night and then pray the next morning.
When it came time for me to go to bed last night, I felt like I really needed to talk to God. I realized that’s it’s never a bad thing to pray, so I’d pray both at night and in the morning. However, when I prayed last night it wasn’t how I usually pray. It was more like venting to God. This morning, I prayed how I usually pray at night. It felt weird.
I did it while lying in bed because that’s what I’m used to, but I couldn’t focus. I kept wanting to get up and start my day. Plus, it was confusing to pray about yesterday and today at the same time. Usually when I pray at night, I talk about the day I just had.
I probably won’t switch my prayer time from night to morning, but I will definitely try to pray more consistently throughout the day.
The time has come to tell you about my extraordinary plans for this fall. I will be studying abroad on mission in Jerusalem, Israel for four months. This is an exciting opportunity for me and I wanted to share some details with you. My study abroad program is through my university. However, I am partnering with Cru Study Abroad so I can live missionally while I’m in Israel.
The main reason I chose to study abroad in Israel is that I am minoring in Hebrew. Of course there are so many benefits to studying in Israel. It is the Holy Land, and I look forward to experiencing the land where Jesus walked and taught.
I recently received my Missions Toolbox from Cru Study Abroad, and I was thrilled by what was inside. I’m going to give you a peek inside to help you understand what I’ll be doing in Israel. If you are familiar with Cru, you know that they have a lot of resources for starting spiritual conversations and sharing the gospel. Among these are Soularium, Perspective Cards, Knowing God Personally, and Satisfied. (To learn more about these, visit crupress.com) I have had at least a little practice with all these tools, and I look forward to putting them to use in Israel.
Another tool in my Missions Toolbox is my Study Abroad Playbook. With help from my coach, I will be able to take advantage of all the information in it. My coach is going to lead me through the book and help me learn how to live on mission while abroad. They will be my sounding board, my encouragement, and my kick in the pants. As much as I want to share the gospel while I’m in Israel, I know it won’t be easy. I will need some accountability.
God has blessed me with the financial means necessary to live comfortably in Israel for 4 months. I would love it if you would consider supporting me prayerfully. Opportunites like these come with inherent risks and obstacles, so I can use all the prayer I can get.
I will try my best to keep up with this blog while I’m in Israel. I know I am going to have so many adventures and stories to tell, so stay tuned. I leave for Israel in about a month and a half, and there is still so much to do. I ask that you please start praying for me now. I trust that God will provide for me once I am in Israel, and that he will get me there safe and sound.
If you would like to talk with me about my trip, you can email me at email@example.com.
Yours in Christ,
“You will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.”
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There’s this problem that I’ve had for a while that I didn’t recognize as a problem until recently. The problem is that when a person says or does something that reveals that they aren’t a Christian, I think to myself, “Well, they’re going to Hell.” The problem is not that it’s not true. The problem is that it’s not nice. I shouldn’t think like that. I should feel bad for those people and want to help them change the fate of their eternity. Instead, I feel a twisted sense of pride, as if I’m better than them because I’m going to Heaven, and their stupidity and ignorance are being rightfully punished by them going to Hell. It’s basically like, “What they believe is wrong, so they’re going to Hell. Good, it’s what they deserve.” See? Not nice. That’s definitely not how God thinks, and it’s certainly not how He wants me to think. Because the truth is, I deserve to go to Hell, too. I’m not any better than those people who have it wrong just because I got it right. I’m no more righteous or deserving of Heaven than they are. God sees me as righteous not because I am, but because Jesus in me is. It’s true that I’m going to Heaven because I believe in God and have accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. It’s not true that that gives me the right to consider myself better than anyone else, because I’m not. My sin killed Jesus just as much as theirs did. Their sin didn’t make him any more dead than mine did. God sees all sin the same. And he loves all sinners the same.
“Give me your eyes for just one second. Give me your eyes so I can see everything that I keep missing. Give me your love for humanity. Give me your arms for the broken-hearted. The ones that are far beyond my reach. Give me your heart for the ones forgotten. Give me your eyes so I can see.” ~Give Me Your Eyes, Brandon Heath
Hello, everyone! I don’t think I’ve ever told you before, but I wrote another book! I finished my second book, Second Chance, back in January. I haven’t told you all about it yet because I didn’t think it made much sense to promote a secular book on a Christian blog. Don’t get me wrong, the book is not inappropriate. It’s just not inherently religious. Let me tell you a little bit about it. Anyone can tell you to read their book, but not everyone will tell you why you should. But that’s what I’m going to do.
This book was a labor of love for me. It took me about a year to write it, and I loved every minute of it, but it was hard work. It made it a bit easier that the book is based on my life. The main character, Bella, is based on me, and the other characters on my friends and family. Bella is who I might become if a certain event occurs in the future. For now, I get to live vicariously through her. The book is written from what I consider a unique perspective. Even though I am a girl, the story is told through a guy’s point of view: Logan’s, the other main character. You might find it interesting to see a girl’s idea of what goes on in a guy’s head.
This being a romance novel, you may be inclined to believe that it is cliché. I’d like to think that isn’t the case. Whenever I wrote something that could’ve been seen as cliché, I usually changed it because I try to avoid clichés like the plague (yeah, it’s an old pun, but it’s still a good one). Besides the main plot of a romance developing between Logan and Bella, there are a couple subplots. That way you get a break from all the lovey-dovey stuff.
Logan is breaking into the architecture business and he has quite a few interesting, and even humorous, experiences. Both in Logan’s job and his romance with Bella, things aren’t all rainbows and sunshine. I tried my best to keep it real. People appreciate honesty, after all. But don’t worry, no one dies. If you’re still reading, that means you aren’t completely opposed to the idea of reading my book. Yay!
If you’ll stick around for a little longer, I’ll give you a summary to help you make up your mind. Here it is: “When Bella was a young girl she fell in love with her brother’s best friend, Logan. She loved him for seven years, but her love was unrequited. Seven years after they last saw each other, Logan shows up on her doorstep hoping for a second chance. Bella locks him out, then lets him in. Things begin to change for them as she begins to trust him again. They start off as friends then, after facing some complications, Logan breaks down the walls around her heart and she gives him a second chance with it. Opposition meets them wherever they go, but they fight it together. As Logan struggles to find his place in the business world, Bella begins struggling to find her place with Logan. The relationship is far from perfect, but it’s definitely worth it. Logan and Bella grow in their love for one another and, with a little help from friends and family, end up where Bella always dreamed they would.”
Okay, so if you think you want to check it out, I should probably tell you where you can find it. Well, if you head on over to Barnes & Noble…Just kidding! Unfortunately, it is yet to be published. You can, however, find it on Wattpad, a story sharing website that also has a mobile app. All you have to do is create an account and then you can get started reading. If you like to read on your phone, you can download the app.
Most of the chapters are pretty bite-sized, so you can read them whenever you have a few free moments. You’ll find that Wattpad’s app is very user-friendly and you can change the settings so the font, font size, font color, page color, and more are just the way you like them. And if you’ve had a long day and just want to relax for a while and read, switch it into night mode and then turn on automatic scrolling at the speed you want so you don’t even have to do any work.
If you have something you’d like to say about something you read, just leave a comment! At the end of each chapter you can vote if you liked what you read. All this being said, it’s totally up to you whether or not you read the book, or even give it a chance. If romance really isn’t your thing, that’s totally fine. There’s no book that everyone likes. But if you start reading and you do like it, I encourage you to keep reading at your own pace.
You don’t have to comment or tell me if you’ve started reading it, but I’d appreciate if you did. It would be a nice self-esteem boost for this aspiring author. If you read this whole thing, which may seem longer to me than it actually is because it took me so long to type it, then I want to thank you. I had almost given up on trying to get more people to read my book, but then I thought of you guys and how you are, for some reason, interested enough in what I have to say to follow me. So I hope you like my book as much as you like my posts. But, even if you don’t, stick around here because I’ll continue to occasionally post good stuff. I’m thankful for every single one of you. God bless!
Last night at work (Sonic) we were really slow so a group of us were standing around just talking. One of the guys joked that I did crack and another guy didn’t know he was joking and he was so shocked. He was like, “I can’t imagine her doing that!” He’s new and he already knows me that well. Then the guy who was joking about it said, “I’m just kidding. She loves Jesus.” That made me so happy to hear. That must mean that I’ve been showing Jesus through my words and actions, which is great because the point of my life is to point to God.