Today’s challenge was to pray for myself. I understand that sounds selfish, but it’s really not. See, I have trouble praying for myself. I feel like I don’t deserve to ask God for anything. After all, I’m a sinner who doesn’t deserve anything He does for me.
The reason I made this a challenge is because I want to learn that it is not bad to pray for myself. I want to feel comfortable bringing my worries, requests, and feelings to him. I want to believe that He cares.
Usually when I pray, I put myself last. I thank God, I confess my sins, I pray for others, and then I pray for myself. Since I do my biggest prayer at night, sometimes I fall asleep before I get to myself.
Today was a great day to have this challenge because it was the first day of my semester. I had a lot to pray about! One of the biggest things is adjusting to school starting, and being in a different country where things are so much different than in America. Also, there are some things weighing on me emotionally, that it felt good to bring to God.
There’s a quote that I really like that I often need to remind myself of. It goes like this:
God is not bothered by our constant coming and asking. The way to trouble God is not to come at all.
I was going to post this yesterday, but I ended up not doing the challenge until I went to bed.
Yesterday’s challenge was to pray for opportunities to share my faith. That was fitting because I started my semester today, which should give me plenty of opportunities to share my faith.
I took it a step further, and asked God to help me to see the opportunities He gives me, and to give me the courage to start spiritual conversations.
A lot of the friends I’ve made here claim to be Christians, but I intend to have conversations with them so I can discover what being a Christian means to them. Then I can tell them what it means to me. That’s another way to share my faith.
This challenge reminded me of the importance of seeking out opportunities to share my faith.
I know I just posted the Prayer J.A.R. post, but I actually wrote it a couple days ago. I was just having some technical difficulties.
Like I said in that post, I’m going to share how my challenge went each day. Since I’m on my second day, I’ll be posting twice today to catch up.
My challenge the first day was to pray in the morning instead of at night.
The reason I wrote that one is because I am a stickler for praying at night, and I thought it could be good to switch up my routine.
I drew that slip in the morning, and since I had prayed the night before, I decided to not pray that night and then pray the next morning.
When it came time for me to go to bed last night, I felt like I really needed to talk to God. I realized that’s it’s never a bad thing to pray, so I’d pray both at night and in the morning. However, when I prayed last night it wasn’t how I usually pray. It was more like venting to God. This morning, I prayed how I usually pray at night. It felt weird.
I did it while lying in bed because that’s what I’m used to, but I couldn’t focus. I kept wanting to get up and start my day. Plus, it was confusing to pray about yesterday and today at the same time. Usually when I pray at night, I talk about the day I just had.
I probably won’t switch my prayer time from night to morning, but I will definitely try to pray more consistently throughout the day.
The other day, I was thinking about how last semester my friend would challenge me to pray differently than I usually do. I remember that being a really interesting experience and I thought I’d try it again. One night, when I was praying, God gave me the idea for a prayer jar. You probably think of a prayer jar as a place where you keep your prayer requests. Mine, however, is not like that. Mine is where I keep prayer challenges. It could be a challenge to pray in a certain way, or about a certain thing. When I sat down to write out the challenges, I only had a few in mind. I ended up with 16! I am both excited and nervous to take on these challenges. Tomorrow morning, I will pick my first slip of paper. As I’m writing this, it occurs to me that I could post about each challenge and what I do. I might just do that. For now, here’s a picture of the slips of paper with the challenges, and my Prayer J.A.R. It’s an acronym because I decided that J.A.R. stands for Jesus Accepts Requests. Let me know what you think of this idea, and if you do something similar. Also, feel free to send me new challenges!
P.S. excuse the white boxes-I wasn’t able to remove them