We’ve surely all heard the infamous story of Jekyll and Hyde. They are two sides to the same person. The difference is quite extreme. One is good and one is evil. It is a case of split personality disorder. While not many of us have two literal personalities living in us, most of us have two sides. Especially Christians. We have that side of us that is Christlike and holy, and that side of us that ruins our righteousness; that side that is not who we are. It’s our sinful side. Sometimes it shows itself for a brief moment when we break character and cuss at someone on the road. Othertimes, it shows itself for longer periods of time when we experience a lapse in judgement, such as when we put ourselves in a place where we will be tempted to sin and, consequently, do. Either way, when we switch back to our godly side, we realize that what we did was wrong and we feel guilty. We know in our hearts that the person God made us to be would not do what we just did. Romans 7:15 says, “I do not understand what I do…What I hate I do.” Verse 20 goes on to say, “If I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.” Ever since the days of Adam and Eve, mankind has had a sinful nature. We let this sinful nature, this other side of us, take over sometimes. In a song by Plumb titled ‘Lord, I’m Ready Now,’ she sings the lyrics, “I was so caught up in who I’m not.” That happens. I can think of many times when that’s happened to me. When my godly side got mad at my sinful side because it couldn’t believe that it made my body do what it just did. These two sides war against each other, see? They cannot coexist. One always comes out on top. Another song that comes to mind is ‘My Own Worst Enemy’ by Casting Crowns. The song is about warring against your sinful side. The reason I titled this post ‘Jekyll and Hyde’ is because I just heard a Plumb song by that title. There’s an excerpt from that song that fits well here. “You make it look like I am the crazy one here.” In the worst of situations, when it feels like you’ve hit rock bottom, you begin to wonder if choosing to live your life for God was the right decision. You think back on your sins and wonder if they’re even that bad. You begin to think that it’s not fair that God doesn’t let you do what you want. The “you” that Plumb is referring to is her sinful side: Hyde. It makes her feel like her godly side is crazy, and not her sinful side. It makes her feel like she’s crazy for not doing what she sees others doing. There comes a point in every Christian’s life when they want to give into their sinful side. Permanently. It is then that you have to weigh the pros and cons of being a godly Christian. It is then that you must remember the guilt you’ve felt in the past when your sinful side took over. Then you will realize that it’s worth it to be a Christian. Not easy, but worth it. It’s okay to live a life that others don’t understand. It’s best to not let your sinful side get the upper hand.
I was asked today what I would wish for if God gave me one wish.
I would wish for Him to help me be better at witnessing to this broken world. It’s unrealistic to wish for an end to abortion or homosexuality or disease or poverty. Yes, an end to those things would be great, but there will always be something that we want to change. So instead of trying to change everything around us, we need to focus on changing our hearts to be loving in this broken world.
But that’s not something I really need to wish for. All I have to do is pray.
In response to today’s court ruling legalizing gay marriage in the U.S., I’d like to share my opinion. God loves everyone. No exceptions. That being said, he doesn’t love our sin. Think of it this way: God feels the same way about sinners as we do about burgers that give us indigestion. He loves them but He doesn’t love what they do. Homosexuality is a sin. The Bible says so. It was homosexuality that led to the demise of Sodom and Gomorrah. Just because the homosexuals are celebrating sin doesn’t mean we should stop loving them. If anything, it means we should love them more. They need us to show them the love of God. If we go on persecuting them, then they’ll go on believing that God is a God of hatred. That’s not true. God wants us to love homosexuals just as he does. As I’m typing this, I’m sitting in a room with a gay guy who I have come to know over the past few weeks. He is a very kind man. He has a wonderful personality. Being gay doesn’t make him any less amazing. We all sin. None of us should be identified by our sin. Imagine having to constantly wear a sticker with your biggest sin on it. Imagine being called by that sin. Would you like that? No. Then why is it that we look at homosexuals and only think ‘gay?’ They are so much more than that! They have personalities! They have talents and passions! Just like the rest of us. The only difference is that they wear their sin on their sleeve, without realizing it’s a sin. Our job is not to point out that sin and terrorize them for it. No! Our job is to show them God’s love. However, God does want us to confront them about their sin. Galatians 6:1 says, “If someone is caught in any sin, you as a follower of Christ should restore that person with a gentle spirit.” Gentle spirit. Do it with love! Not condemnation! I will admit that I have had a bitter attitude towards homosexuals in the past. Except I see now that won’t change anything. Love will. God’s love will.
My church is a good size. There’s not an overwhelming amount of people, but it’s not too small either. I go to the early service with all the older people. The music is usually hymns, and I love it. Then my Sunday school is divided up into small groups by gender and grade, lead by one main speaker. The music is typically newer songs like the kind I have on my phone. I really enjoy the worship. About twice a month on Sundays, I sing with the worship band. It’s a great experience. I sometimes volunteer to help out with the little kids. And I like to serve when other opportunities arise. On Wednesday nights, I love the worship and listening to my pastor preach the message. We aren’t the kind of church that is all focused on fun and games. We do have a pool table and ping pong and foosball, but we don’t let them get in the way of praising our God. Overall, I adore my church. I feel like it’s right where God wants me.
Favorite part about creation:
I really love humans. They are so complex, intricate. When I look at humans, when I look at myself, I just know that we have to have a creator. There’s no way that we all came about by chance. We were formed by a God who loved us enough to perfect every detail of us-inside and out. The way we think, act, and love all prove that we are the product of intelligent and loving design. And that is beautiful.
I spend a lot of time in my room. I do a lot in there. It’s where I think, write, do work, spend time with God. It’s like my sanctuary.
Place I want to visit:
London. Hands down. I’ve just recently developed a burning desire to go there. The city is so beautiful. Plus, I’ve heard it rains a lot. I love rain. It makes things grow and it’s just so peaceful and aesthetically pleasing. Also, I adore British accents. :)